Sparkling Smile!

Guess where I spent my morning? Yeap...I am sitting here right now doing my best impersonation of Bill Cosby in the dentist chair. My nose feels like it disappeared and my lip feels like it is 1000 time bigger than usual.

I had a tooth repaired and actually got some bad news. I have short roots and I could loose my teeth at a very early age. It is a problem that is mostly genetic that has been compounded by the fact that I have not taken care of them as I should have.

So, in an effort to avoid loosing my teeth, I will be spending alot of $$$$ to try and avoid it. I have never been a vain person and spending money on my looks is something that I would normally ever consider but this is different than going out and getting boobs or a nose job. This is my teeth!

So, I guess I better get used to the numb feeling because I may be feeling it alot.

Blinding Lights

Yesterday I was having a productive day and had just sat down for lunch when it suddenly hit me. My computer screen became a wavy flash of lights and the room was filled with brilliant lights that grew in intensity. I knew it was going to be a bad one.

I have a rare form of migraine called hemiplegic migraines. I rarely have pain with my migraines...and I would take the pain anyday over what I go through.

The flashing lights are the beginning and that is followed by complete loss of vision in my right eye. Then the right side of my face droops and goes numb. My tongue and throat are numb and this numbness travels down my right side. I loose the use of my right arm and hand.

Once this starts to subside, I am exhausted and my words are slurred for a while.

It is scary because this type of migraine makes me more subseptable to having a stroke. And who would know because I already look like I have had one?

The only thing I can do is to rest and sleep it off. Yesterday, I sat at work and waited for my vision to get good enough to drive and I went home and slept for hours.

Why am I telling you this? To let you know that everyone has their "thing" that they deal with...this is mine. I am learning to cope with this and they are getting further apart than they were last summer.

You are Stupid...

The vast majority of the town that I live in falls under this category. They are indeed stupid...not just dumb or even uneducated...just stupid.

What is the difference? Well, dumb or uneducated people do not have a choice in most cases. Circumstances may have a lot to do with a person being this way.

Stupid people make the choice to be ignorant of facts to serve their selfish existence.

My definition of what makes a person stupid is that they make no move to learn the facts but instead they follow the views that are most popular at the moment. Once the popularity shifts, so does this person's opinions and beliefs. Their ideas are not based on any fact and typically they only work to feed a negative firestorm.

Wicked Food

So, Friday night my SO and I went out for a nice dinner. Sounds simple enough, I know but we rarely have the time to do things like that. I actually didn't know that we were doing it until we pulled up to the it was a nice surprise.

I had the crab cakes, scalloped potatoes and green beans. It was really good UNTIL about an hour later when the indigestion hit. Honestly, after that, I didn't feel good the rest of the weekend. It was all topped off on Saturday evening when the real sickness and toilet worshipping began. Sunday was spent between the couch and the bed.

I do not have time to be sick. We have WAY too much to do to get ready for the big move. Packing has not even begun!!! Saturday we did manage to get the garage cleaned and rid of the junk and I did manage to go through most of the kitchen cabinets and get rid of the junk...but there is still so much to do.

Just Crazy!

So, last night, I worked the door for a concert at Stages. It was an all ages show...BIG MISTAKE! But that is how the performer does all of his shows. So, we put bracelets on the 21 and over crowd and marked the hands of the ones that are too young to drink.

The concept seems simple enough but WTF??? The young ones would either wash off the permanent ink or have their friends buy them alcohol. Several (number too high to say) were asked to leave for drinking.

I stood at the door and would not let anyone in if they did not have either a bracelet or mark. If they didn't have either, they had to pay to get back in. OMG! I felt like I was a part of a three ring circus! Managing this alone took 4 people!!!

I actually enjoy working the door though. I get to be tough (and yes, I know how to do that) and enforce the rules.

I am just glad that we do not do many of these all ages shows!

New Look!

This is the new look for my blog. I am actually very happy with it although there have been problems with how it looks on some monitors. (Please let me know if you see a problem)

One of the reasons that I am so excited about it is because this is my first template! That is right...I am learning coding and I hard coded this template! And I am proud of myself and I don't think it is too bad for my first one.

So, let me know what you I can improve it or if there are any problems.

My Secret!

I am a weather geek...but not just any form of weather excites me. I have this morbid fascination with Tropical Systems. When the tropics heat up, I get this excitement that is just sick!

It is not that I want a direct hit to obliterate a town. It it the excitement of watching it grow and build and get closer. I can't explain it.

I have gone through about 15 hurricanes of varying strengths and they honestly scare me. But the events leading up to it...gets me real excited! All of the preparation, tracking the storm, waiting for the next update and watching the updates on TWC...

Maybe it is because it is a break from the normal routine...not sure. But it is Hurricane season and it is starting to heat up!!!

Weekend in Review

I had my girls this weekend and we went to see Beauty and The Beast at the local youth theater. I enjoyed the show but enjoyed watching them just as much. This was their first live show and they both just loved it.

We went out to eat before hand and then went to the show.

It was a great "girls night out"!

Dream Analysis...Please?

So, last night I actually went to sleep with no problem at all but I had a nightmare all night long. You know, one of those dreams that feels so real that when you wake up you are shaking.

I would wake up, go back to sleep and it would start from where it left off.

You are all probably going to think I am crazy but here goes...

I fought vampires all night...a whole room of them. One of them actually bit my neck. I was in a dark place and there were very dim lights surrounding the walls. It looked a little like a cave as the walls were rough and slightly damp because they would glisten in the dim lights. The leader wasn't dressed in a way that you would think was typical of a vampire because he wore white. He had dark hair and very pasty white powdery skin. There were other girls there that were chained to the walls that were very near me and they looked dead to me as they did not move. I fought them as best I could but the leader was much too strong. He managed to pin me to the floor and took a bite of my neck.

At this point, I apparently yelled outloud because my SO grabbed me and I woke up. The dream would just started over. The other times that I woke up, the dream just kept going. I am physically sore and exhausted this morning.

So, what do you think that this dream could possible mean?

I am NOT the Energizer Bunny!

My life is just crazy busy right now. Between my new duties at work, marketing for the club and my kids; there doesn't seem to be anytime to just relax any more. In many ways that is really good but my history says that after prolonged period of going is not good at all.

I am starting to feel everything taking its toll on my emotionally. I am not sleeping well and getting to sleep is becoming a huge challenge. Today, I feel like I could just cry and really just wanted to pull the covers over my head and hide from the world.

Sunday, I stayed on the couch until I had to go to work at the club. I felt guilty about doing that but I knew that was what I needed to do. Why did I feel guilty? Maybe because my SO is like the energizer bunny and just keeps going and going. So, if I stop, I just up feeling inadequate and lazy. (this is not something he is making me feel...this is ALL something that I am putting on myself)
With my history, though, I know when I have pushed it too far. The first sign is that I can't sleep. Then I can't focus and then I get depressed. When this happens, I have to be very careful and take the time to really take care of myself.
So, it is time to admit and accept that I am NOT the Energizer Bunny!

Something for Nothing????

So, last night I worked the door at the club. It was there that I witnessed something shameful about people... They all want something for nothing! Now this is hardly an unexpected revelation but you hardly expect to have that notion slap you in the face 100 times in 1 night.

Imagine going to the movie theater and asking to be allowed in for free. Imagine going out to eat and asking that you not be required to pay your bill. What do you think would happen? Do you think that it would work? Of course not!!!

So, why is it that people go to a club with a great entertainer with a $10 ticket and begg or complain at the door about having to pay? We have to pay that performer, the sound engineer and for security...why do you think that you are so important that you should not have to pay? The excuses are endless... "I know_____, the bartender"....duh??? He is a bartender... a lot of people know him! and yes, one time I even got, "I am great friends with _____...he owns the place" (backstory...this person sold it over 8 months ago! yes, indeed you are great friends!)

We actually do give away tickets to some of our shows. We have a set amount that are comp long before the show. What really pisses me off is when a person has 2 of these tickets and they bring 4 people and expect those 2 tickets to work for 4 people. What kind of math is that?

What is really funny is watching guys that are out trying to impress a girl. They come up to the door and try to smooth talk their way out of paying. WTF? Do they really think they are impressing her? YES!!!! The girl just stands there and rolls her eyes because the only thing that he just showed her is that 1) she is not worth $10 to him and 2) he is cheap.

I really want to believe that it is the economy but I doubt it. People have a sense of entitlement that they "deserve" to be given things and it is sad.

My point is...if you can't afford to go out....STAY HOME!

The Week is Almost Over!!!

Despite the craziness of my week, I am finally allowing myself to enjoy the great thing that happened to me this week. I got the job that I really wanted. Now the job that I do is something that I have a great passion for. And now that I am almost finished getting organized, I can dig in and enjoy it.

I apologize for whining all week about my job. This change has been very stressful and this blog is my release. The company structure is still changing but I think that the parts that directly impact me are over....I hope.

I am eager for the weekend and I plan on relaxing.

Slow, Deep Breaths!

To say that the week has been difficult is putting it very mildly. The changes are work are still happening at a couple of our other offices and I am trying to get more organized so I can do my new duties along with all of the ones that I already had.

I feel like I am starting to make progress though. Today has been much better! My days are very busy and the time seems to fly by.

Who Told You That Life Is Fair?

So, 2 things happened good and one not good.

My friend was laid off...not good and I feel horrible. I was given the Marketing Coordinator position...very good and a goal of mine. It is hard to feel really happy about this accomplishment because of what happened to make that position a possibility.

I am trying really hard to enjoy the accomplishment because I have worked hard for it. The way that it happened is not my fault and I had nothing to do with it at all.

So, today will be a tough day as everyone finds out that she is gone. I have to go through all of her files and get organized. So, I am off to my busy day.

Just Another Monday...

I hate Monday's...I know that isn't really a profound statement but I am really hating it today. See, there is something going on at work that I am not even supposed to know about. Truth is that I wasn't really told exactly what it is but that IT is happening today and it will directly impact my job. Nice, huh?

Sometimes it is nice to have a little warning when shit is going to hit the fan...but not this time...not with the condition of the market and not with the recent events that included cutting hours.

So, It is going to be a GREAT day! (sarcasm noted)

Happy July 4th!

Well, it is July 4th and I am actually working. Why? Can you say, DOUBLE OVERTIME??? I am sitting here answering the phones and taking care of any walk ins that come...which there have been none and probably won't be!!! Easy Money!

I hope everyone has a great holiday weekend!

Shame On Me

I have been slack at posting the past few days. Not going in until 10 am is taking some getting used to. It works pretty well since I am working the door at the club and not getting home until early morning. Atleast I am not dead on my feet tired all day.

I really don't have anything to really talk about though. Life is pretty boring right now. I so want to go away for a weekend and get away from it all. I guess I just need to figure out how to spice things up a bit.

Oh well, that is a thought for another day.