Things that Amuse Me

Do you remember when you were a kid? When things were as simple as picking out the right thing to wear for the day? When most every choice that you had really wasn't a choice at all?

My oldest daughter reminds me of those days. She can't wait to be a grown up. I tell her that it doesn't get any better. Parents telling you what to do just gets replaced by a boss telling you what to do. Parents telling you what you can spend money on just gets replaced by bill collectors and the IRS. She just looks at me like I am crazy.

So, what is my point? I have some really big choices to make in my life right now. What do I really want for my life? Will making changes really "change" anything? What are my choices and which one is the best one?

It all just makes me long for those simple times when someone could just tell me what to do.

All I do know is that I have really steered far away from the things that I know are right. Somewhere along the way I decided that a little happiness was enough and that the things that I really want for my life do not matter enough to fight for.

It all just makes me want to pull my hair out!

Ok, so why is it that a 3 day weekend only makes me tired? I needed to come back to work to get some rest!

I left work on Friday and drove 5 hours to visit my mother. I had a good visit but it was filled with Grandma's comments and a forced visit to church to give my sufficient dose of guilt about "living in sin", not going to church, etc. The highlight of the trip was shopping at Hanes Mall and finally buying some much needed clothes.

Monday, the girls and I headed home and then went to a cookout. The evening ended when my oldest daughter decided to jump off of a trailer and proceeded to twist her ankle and we headed to the ER. Fortunately, it only took an hour but we left with a broken bone, a soft cast and crutches! She is devastated that her summer is starting this way.

Here is where the fun begins. Her father...the a**hole...tore into me about being a horrible mother and threatened to call his attorney. OMG! She was being a kid...having fun and an accident happened. I went home fuming!

I think I would rather skip the 3 day weekends!